So I am back in Modesto

Not by choice but by circumstance.  

It is a very cold wintry day.  The weather forecast is for lots of rain over the next few days.  I will get a pedicure later today.  Tomorrow I will go to Costco.  Then it is home for the long weekend while it storms with thunder, lighting and flooding.

I am not happy here.  I don't think I will ever be happy again but just a certain level of contentment....getting by.  I stay home almost all of the time.  I have no desire to go anywhere or do anything.  Well I did play slots on Monday.  First time in years and it sure was fun and my sidekick was a lot of fun.  The best distraction I have had in a long while.

I live in a house where a family lived for almost 60 years.  It is their house.  I am starting to feel more at home here.  It is large and sits on 1/4 acres and has a great sunroom.

I have other work to do.....

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